a post..

..straight from the very bottom of my (fragile) heart! this is a song i long dedicate to the man who brought me into this world.

*emotionless by good charlotte*

(taken here)

dear *you*,

first and foremost..

i hope you're doing fine, even if i'm/we're not.

that's not the main point.

the thing is, do you ever realize that..

you were never there..

to see me growing up to what i am today.

you were never there..

to hold my hand and walk me to school.

you were never there..

to read me bedtime stories.

you were never there..

to tuck me into bed and kiss me goodnight.

you were never there..

to dry my tears and tell me that everything's gonna be just fine.

you were never there..

the day i graduated.

will you be at my wedding? i doubt.

and yes, do you still remember the day i was born?

do you remember my birthday? i don't think so.

christmas? do you ever think of this little girl?

has 'she' ever cross your mind?

*deep sigh*

..and for that and more, i loathe you lots. to the very core.

yet, i can't lie to myself, there are times, i notice, i miss you badly.

i miss you up to the extend that i forget how much i loathe you.

seriously, I MISS YOU..

love,

your daughter.