i'm on my way towards becoming a teacher...

it's been ages since i last "landed" here. i've been busy (real busy, i mean!) these days. my life changes so rapidly that sometimes i feel i have some difficulties in coping up with things. and for your information, i'm no longer a volunteer under jabatan kebajikan masyarakat negeri sarawak. i'm currently undergoing my 1 year kpli training in institut pendidikan guru malaysia kampus ilmu khas, cheras, kuala lumpur. i'm a soon-to-be-teacher, God's willing.

being a teacher is not easy, i must admit! it's not like you'll get to work half day, seriously, it's not like that. teachers need to prepare lesson plans, teaching aids, handouts, quizzes, tests, marking books, attending courses here and there, replacing classes, in charge of co-curriculum, and lots of other task. honestly, there are times when i feel like quitting, but then again, that's so not me. being a coward is so not me, ok. i'll never, ever quit. SAYA BANGGA MENJADI GURU!

just another quick update...

...soon after i had my lunch. i should take few shots of us, having lunch in the pantry. yeah, some other day, i should. well, i'll be having an interview for KPLI tomorrow. do pray for me, buddies! i really hope i'll be selected for the june 2009 intake. i need a permanent job, yeah, i really do. plus, being a teacher is what i always want to be. teaching kids. yeah, i just love kids...

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pssst, what a lame post, right? what's happening to me lately? i sound so lame. God, help me, please!!! OK-LA-BUB-BYE!!! ♥

quick update!

it's been ages (hell yeah, AGES!!!) since my last update. lots of things took it place and there are lots of stories to be shared. i've been longing to blog my thoughts here but damn, my fucking modem is "rosak" by last friday's thunder. oh no, forgive me for my lousy english. oh man, i almost forget how to speak english. this is an impact (am i using the correct term?) from speaking only bahasa melayu sarawak in office. oh God, help me!!!

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will be updating real soon. this is a promise. peace!

love-love,
yours truly... ♥

my 10th day as a volunteer...

today was quite exhausting. attended 2 meeting - one in the morning and another one in the afternoon. guess what, i got the chance to meet the State Secretary. i sat just few chairs away from him. happy happy. he's a very inspiring man, i must say. besides him, i also got the chance to meet two other famous faces of the government sector. at first, i felt kinda low, low, low. i was surrounded by those of grade 41 and above and... the State Secretary. and me? i'm only a volunteer. but who cares? being a volunteer is not something that's not good. i got the chance to learn many (like, MANY!) things. in fact, i'm happy that i chose to be a volunteer. even though i don't get as much pay as others, but still, what i earn every month is enough. most importantly, the experince i gain is something i could never had elsewhere. hope you're enjoying you job too! love love!~ :)

my 8th day as a volunteer...

i was given my very own cubical today, and hell yes, i have my own desktop pc which is connected to the internet, and oh yes, i'm darn happy. i just can't wait for tomorrow to come.

early in the morning, en najib called. he wanted to see me. and so he handed me few tasks to do. after that, i continued with my previous task -- the computer and software auditing. it was quite hard for me as i'm not quite familiar with those of the federal (our offices are seperated by level, ours (state) is at ground floor, and as for federal, their office is at the first floor). i was lucky, though, sukma was there to help me. i can say 95% of the auditing task has already been completed (please note -- for HQ only!). that's mean, i have 10 more divisions to cover (minus kuching division).

and oh yeah, i went over to the kuching division office today, to get the list of computers handed by SAINS to them. i was fortunate as i met en david and pn salbiah who helped me a lot with the list. so, i'm done with kuching division. for the rest 10 divisions, i'll need to send them memorandum rasmi tomorrow, asking them to fax me their lists. i hope i manage to finish everything by next week. do pray for me.

i made few new friends too today. best kan? so, how was your day?

oh, what a life...

i'm been a bit busy (plus lazy!) lately and thus i've left my blog un-attended for like one week (or was it two weeks?). for your information, i've reported for duty last week, which was on the 14th of april, and yes, i've chosen to be a volunteer. i, seriously am satisfied with my decision this time. i'm no longer the greedy mary who can't think of anything else other than money, money and money. it came to my realization that there are things more important that money. that's why i chose to be in the welfare department. :)

my first day was quite boring. i met few important people of the welfare department. and oh yeah, i was attached to the HQ. the first task that was given to me was to call the PPB of all divisions throughout sarawak. everything went on well unless for this one division. he complained that i was being rude to him. i didn't. and i was only doing what was assigned to me. i was lucky that my senior volunteer backup-ed me. other 10 divisions responded well to my call. and if it was true that i've been rude, the other 10 divisions will also be complaining about me. but they didn't. that's when i finally learned that it's not easy to pleased everyone. and so, that was my first lesson.

my second day was great! i went along with my boss to the stations under welfare department. RSK was my favorite place. it's a place better known as rumah orang tua. yes, it's a place for all the orang tua "dumped" by their children. it was my first time being there and it was so damn memilukan. ouch! i simply cannot tahan seeing those folks being left there even though they are very well taken care of. can you imagine seeing your father and mother living in rumah orang tua? kejam!!! i just pretended to be happy to see them jumping up and down (they were having sukaneka at that time!) but actually my eyes were filled with tears. ouch! next, we went to PPS, a home for those un-impaired. they were all so friendly and there was this one chinese girl called me to see her jahitan tampung seribu. i was surprised to see her jahitan. so neat. what i admired the most was her friendliness. even though she has difficulty in talking, she tried her best to communicate with me and i was so touched. i wish my boss will bring me there again some other day.

the rest of the days were spent doing office tasks. today, my seventh day, was interesting too. we went to merdeka palace for lunch. i ate everything. everything! i'm still full now, so no dinner for me. i, seriously look forward for tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next week, next month... etc... not forgetting, i was also included in the urusetia list for the upcoming event. happy happy happy. will be updating more soon. bye-bye! :)

...and yes, something else made my day --


i do hope i'll make it through the PAC and also the interview. do pray for me. wishing all the good good things come my way this year! i wish the same for all of you too... :)

i embarrassed myself this morning...

i went to church this morning for the good friday mass, and as usual, we sat at the left wing of the church (lady's chapel side). i spotted a friend of mine, mr bobby, sitting not so far from where i sat. he was a senior, back in my high school. i saw him quite frequently in church, but today, he looked different. he looked more handsome than before. i kept asking myself, "what have he done. kenak nya boleh jadi makin handsome so suddenly? why why why?..." i didn't get to smile or wave my hand at him because i didn't want to look so over-excited, plus he was not alone. it was his girlfriend, i guess, sitting next to him. so, i didn't want her to get the wrong idea. things went on as usual, i sat, i stood, i kneeled, i sang, i listened, i yawned...

and then, came the veneration of the cross session, where i have to walk passed him, on my way to the alter. so, as a junior, and as a friend, i should tegur him, or at least smile at him. and yes, i did, i smiled. and he smiled back. and so i made my way to the alter and then came back to my sit. those sitting at the back, made their way to the alter. this is my favorite session as i get to see different people with different "style". as i enjoyed observing people, something/someone caught my attention, it was mr bobby. he waved and smiled at me and i replied to him.

wait,... oh holy crap,... did i just saw mr bobby??? i turned to look at the other mr bobby. my, oh, my. i was wrong, right from the very beginning. the guy i smiled with earlier on wasn't mr bobby, i smiled with the wrong guy. i got so embarrassed, i wish i could just disappear from the church. i was fortunate enough the mass ended soon enough after i figured out i've just embarrassed myself. thank god. so, morale of the story, don't get to friendly if your friend(s) suddenly transform(s) jadi makin cantik or handsome. :)

life, oh, life...

oh how i wish i'm 12. or 13. or 14. 15 would be nice too!
so i won't have to bear any worries this life brings.
it's better to skinned knees that to face adulthood.
oh God, make me young. make me forever young!

♥ oh-bla-di oh-bla-da... life goes on... ♥

inikah transformasi???

last night's result was the most shocking result ever in akademi fantasia history. two stars were eliminated last night. they performed so well and not much were being commented on them. but why, why the hell were they eliminated out? is this what transformation is all about?

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i'm prepared for whatever that may happen in the next concert.

i love you, allison iraheta...

no matter what they say
about your clothes and appearances,
i think you rock when you sing don't speak.
you go, girl...